All That - My name is It

All That
My name is It

Introduction

Since It was a child he wanted to have a relatively short and pleasant life. Yet It was already close past mid age and was not always happy. All It wanted was to have a pleasant stay on Earth, then if possible to become ashes, and to let the ashes fly up to the sky in a soft warm breeze. It imagine that in the new state it would be about the same, again misunderstood, the same like It had always been, difficult within the multitude… Perhaps It’s soul some day will find the way to reach the unknown as one… even if It no longer is…

The Girl’s name was Asp Erger

It was a day like any other day. He does not remember the time… Walking out of the room, like every day he teased her. She never had a good sense of humor, which made her a good person to tease, to get her easily upset. That day she could not take it any more, it came to be the day the truth escape from inside her. Wow she got angry… Since that day it was her forever blessing… It showed who she was…

To describe that girl is not easy, it has to be said that usually she expresses her personal characteristics in the less visible manner, yet painful. She is able to verbalize her emotions and is less likely to use physically aggressive acts. This time she allowed verbalizing her true ways.

To best describe her we have to say that she copes with her difficulties with an unusual profile of abilities in social situations. She is somewhat different from other people, but she has no true awareness of her ways. Yet she is and has always been able of camouflaging her difficulties. Unable to control her spontaneous ways, she repeats her actions and does the same over and over. She is generally more motivated to learn and quick to understand key concepts so her characteristics are less conspicuous than in other person, yet noticeable.

She often lacks reciprocity and her natural social play can be too controlling frequently goes back to her selective topic repeating it again and again. In another aspect of her style it is obvious she see no value in being sociable, fashionable, preferring practical clothing and frequently not using cosmetics. She is all that but refuses to recognize it in her self. She can procrastinate eternally...

Over the years he has learned to understand her more and more. For her to understand her self is very difficult, different. There are no mirrors in her life and she does not seem to have seen her image in/on a mirror. Always finds a way of avoiding looking at her self. But he has seen who she is and regardless of all, he has learn to like her, to really care about her… Many years have passed and he still cares very much for/about her. She is who she is, nice, sweet, and fragile…

Epilogue
After all, it is of interest that to this day she does not like to see her self in a mirror. A mirror makes her see virtual objects that exist in a virtual world. The truth is that what is seen there is of no great importance, it is known that what is seen inside a mirror has no material existence. It is just a reflection... Not always accurate, How many times it is a flat, sad and a confuse image, yet the mirror seem to be very truthful… Often looking into the mirror people sees what they imagine or believe they see. Many times a hollow image of a self… yet there is existence… Yes.

Anger and sadness can let the inner truth out. Example: All began a long time ago: OU, Painful. Visible… Used???… Then, Mean and many other things... Trying to heal was and is difficult. There is no healing remedy… Truth can be painful, lies are damaging… and always the reality comes to be known… At the end: useless again. It happened to Mou… became useless… He knew that was going to happen. She had told him about her culture…

Yet, thanks, well… things are the way they were meant to be… and he is happy…